{ Life Is An Unexpected Journey }

Dear Allah SWT, please always give me the strength to go through the difficulty YOU put me in.

For the people who always been by my side. THANK YOU

I will always cherish the moment that has been given to me.

Sometimes when you realize there is no one by your side, you know it’s time to learn how to face things alone and never gave up.

They who believe in me, are like the diamonds that are so precious and priceless in my life.

Life are sometimes sucks, but i still have to face those suckers and bitches if i wanna survive in this wicked world.

( D R E A M C A T C H E R )

Shooting Stars.
"Luck is like a gamble"

Growing up into adulthood by days. 19 to be 20. Maybe becoming a miss chef in the future. No need to follow, just read about my boring so called life.


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Si Gadis yang Tiada Hati
Monday, 17 April 2017 | 18:59 | 0 comments

Assalammualaikum & Hi peps! 

Di sini aku harini, masih lagi menaip cerita kehidupan yang penuh dengan drama tanpa henti ni. Hehe, rindu sebenarnya nak bercerita.
Banyak benda dah jadi dalam awal 2 bulan ni sebelum nak habis belajar. Betul dugaan semuanya. Betullah ada orang cakap dulu. Bermulanya kehidupan yang sebenar tu pada usia 20an. Lagi dah nak grad, lagi banyak yang menduga //sigh// stress omakkkkkk ni hah! hehe.

Assignment bertimbun, masalah menimpa, manusia yang nak kena hadap pun ramai lagi. Astaghfirullah halazim. Mampu ketawa ja tengok diri sendiri. Such a pity.
Korang nak tahu, sejak dua menjak ni laa aku rasa semua orang asyik marah je. And that makes me sick of it. Seriously. 
I'm sick with the people and their attitude. Acting all bitch and it makes me wanna to scream at their face. If you have a prob, just tell. Don't tell through you attitude. It's pretty sucks. Annoyingly, making me kinda hate you for no strong reason. 

So, aku ni dari dulu sampailah sekarang, tak pernah reti2 nak cari tajuk yang sesuai untuk entri. //gelakkan diri sendiri// hahahaha..
Kenapa aku buat tajuk macam harini ialah sebab, orang keliling aku selalu cakap aku ni jenis takda hati. Hahahahahaha! ni kalau ada emoji gelak nangis tu, memang banyaklah korang akan nampak dekat entri ni, nasib takda emoji. 

Aku pun taktau kenapa orang selalu cakap aku ni takda hati, because last time i checked.. this girl still had her heart but hidden from the world. Haha, that's all. Mungkin diorang cakap macam tu sebab aku ni jarang nak tunjukkan perasaan aku sangatlah kowt. Or maybe just i don't like sharing it to the public. Hahaha.. Entahlah weyh XD

Aku mungkin takda effect sangat terhadap benda2 yang besar, tapi aku sangatlah terkesan dengan benda2 yang kecik dan remeh. Selalunya lah... Hmm.........

So, apa pandangan korang??? Adakah selama korang yang membaca blog aku ni, nampak aku macam tiada hati?? or i'm just another ordinary girl with the same mass of problems but hid it from the world with those pretty smile? :)

Aku macam ada banyak benda nak menaip lagi, tapi tah kenapa macam tersekat dari nak menaip tu. You know, i think every single child felt what i felt. Hahaha, since aku anak tunggal.. aku dulu time kecik2 selalu rasa depress dengan diri sendiri. Maybe because of the loneliness tu la kowt kan? Those feeling are leaving me scars. Sampai sekarang, feeling time kecik2 tu aku masih rasa. Mungkin sebab dah terbiasa sendirian dari kecik. Rasa macam orang tak faham dunia aku. Mungkin sebab tu jugaklah aku dari dulu asyik rasa nak mati je. Hahahahaha. Okay, don't be mad. I'm just stating what i feel so that you guys can understand it a little bit. Kadang2 rasa nak mati tu tinggi sangat. It's like the dark side that i don't wanna remember but keep playing like a replay in my mindset. Mungkin sebab tu jugak aku ni nampak macam takda hati kowt. Hm. 

Hahaha.. tah laa.. so i guess sampai sini jela dulu entri aku untuk kali. Takut kang melalut tak tentu pasal lagi.. hahahahaha...

Sunday, 26 February 2017 | 20:22 | 0 comments

Assalammualaikum and Hi guys!

Pejam celik pejam celik dah nak masuk bulan 3. It's going to be MARCH soon!!!!! so disebabkan aku pun dah masuk last sem this march. . . . . and aku tak berapa nak bertajuk kali ni.. aku pilih FRIENDZONE. Hahahaha.. as tajuk //laughing emoji//

Since jep dengan sariyanti punya story menikah tu tersebar semalam, maka rakyat2 malaysia pun buatlah benda yang diorang suka.. rasanya kebanyakkan rakyat malaysia tahu yang kes Lofattah right? haha.. Lofattah di friendzone ye kawan2. Ramai retis malaysia ni, dari dulu lagi asyik kena friendzone. Kesian?

Well, not really since reality are cruel. Even dalam society ramai yang kena friendzone right? Hahaha. Friendzone is everywhere guys! i mean like, seriously. . .  it's everywhere //lol//... No jokes babe!

Kau suka dia, tapi. . . . . . . . . . .sayangnya dia suka orang lain. HAHAHAHA! jom berhuhu part tu~ Kalau kau confess, kau kena friendzone. Kalau kau berharap pun, kau tetap di friendzone.
So apa je yang tak kena friendzone? jawapannya?. . .

Pasrah. [ni untuk semua umat islam ler]

Kalau rongputeh kata, Have faith in Fate. 

Btw, being in friendzone isn't something bad actually in my opinion. It's actually fine. Well, it's like you're being reserved momentarily for someone better and that really suit you in the future. Yeah, maybe in a meantime you would feel lonely and everything but eventually you will achieve the happiness you hope for, isn't it true? 

Ok, so entry kali ni boring and sampai sini je aku tulis dulu kk~ adios!

Iri hati? Jealous? Haha.
Thursday, 9 February 2017 | 11:55 | 0 comments

Assalammualaikum & Hi guys!!

Hehehe. Rindu nak update blog sebenarnya, so here i am with another chapter of my life. Hm, nak tanyalah, korang banyak tak jumpa orang2 yang fake di sekeliling korang? well, two-faced people. Kawan aku cakap, "hat jenih munafik disebalik pemakaian islam dia tu", ada jugak cakap, "jenis nampak baik, tapi semua tu b*bi doll sangat".

Well, YOU SHALL BE WARN. Today's entry is not gonna use such a lovely words. The world has gone crazy and cruel, so are my teenage life. So BARE WITH IT, or GOT LOST FROM HERE.

You know, when you grow up, you get to know people more better and you just might know which one are the bitches that trying to get you down. The best part are, those bitches are acting like they're the angel while you're the devil. 

Hahaha, sayangnya hidup aku. Sayangnya hidup kita kan? Kesian sangat.. kesian sangat2 sebab dikelilingi oleh SI MUNAFIK BERBAJUKAN ISLAM.

It's just, sometimes i don't get it. 

Okay, story time. There's this girl, (will be unnamed) first, she's fine with me. But because of this one fxxking boy, she's now hating me and spreading those damned rumors about my being around those people and what i have affected them with. 

So, here's the thing. She HATES me. She's SPREADING RUMORS. And she makes me smile even more. Hahahahaha. Okay, aku tau. Orang akan cakap aku gila. But the conclusion that i can make is that, i'm just above her, and she's trying REALLY HARD to get to the place where i am now. That's why she keeps on pulling me down to her spot. 

The thing is, I DON'T CARE. I don't even give a damn thing to know what she's up to. She's just being herself. Her-INSECURE-SELF. And for those people who had trusted her, well. . .hm. . you guys and her, can just have my sympathy easily. Why don't you just asked? I could give it more if you want it. Don't have to be so mean and pathetic. You just making me laugh harder.

I really don't wanna give a fxxk when you guys started to hate me or anything. Just that, i'm only asking you to respect me, as a human. No need to be a friend if you gonna hate me later and spreading rumors or something. Just, RESPECT. Cut the angel look on me, cause i see the real you by just one look. Respect the people who are being friend with me. They're not the one to be blamed for you shit. They did nothing wrong by choosing me as their friend (well, i guess it's maybe because i ain't fake. Ain't no plastic. So, that's why they pick me as their friend, rather than you.).

Hate all you can. I won't judge you like you did to me. It's your choice. Hate with all your heart, because you might need it. I'm just afraid your hate wouldn't help you to get over my bad side. Don't get on my bad side. Just, DON'T. You wouldn't like it if you've seen it. My cold heart can freeze your's. So, don't mess with me. 

Aku tau sebenarnya kau jealous kan? Jealous cause all the attention once you've got is now on me. You're jealous cause he choose to pick on me, rather than you. You're jealous cause he's being himself with me rather than with you? or you just jealous cause everyone like to be around me? or! you're jealous cause i'm much better than you are?

Bitch, you don't have to! Just be yourself! Be YOU! Than people will be by your side and will always be there when you needed them. Stop being jealous and be MATURE. you're soon gonna reach 20 by the end of the month, so TRY HARDER TO BE MATURE.

You need the maturity in the future, so start being like one. Stop those nonsense attitude of yours and STOP MEDDLING with my life. Live a better life, because you're just making mine much  more interesting. Hahahahahaha. Sorry to hurt you and your feelings, but i'm not sorry. It's your own fault to feel threaten by me. 

Hm. So, i guess i'm sorry. Really sorry for the bad words that i've been using. It's not really nice for an islam person to use this words, but i guess i'm just out of the line because of the anger inside my heart. But thanks to All Mighty, Allah SWT, because blessed me with an incredible father that i can never replace with. 

Allah SWT dah hadirkan ayah untuk lembutkan hati aku, untuk sedarkan aku dan ayah jugak yang dah buat aku fikir waras dan matang balik. Aamiin. Terima kasih kepada Allah SWT sebab bagi aku kesempatan untuk ada ayah macam tu. 
Jadi, sampai sini jela entri kali ni. Hahaha, sorry for those rude words above. Buhbye!! see you guys later on the next entry.

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